A Diary of Beauty, Fashion and Personal Life

Tuesday, 3 January 2017


2016 was such an amazing year, I have met some of the most beautiful people, I have travelled to new places such as Greece and Paris and I have made some of the most amazing memories with the people I love. However, I feel like I didn't focus on myself enough at all. I didn't eat healthy like a wanted to, I didn't exercise enough or just love being alone. Doing things alone scares me, and I don't want to be like that anymore and if i don't focus on myself this year or enjoy my own company, then I feel like it's never going to happen, so I need to stay motivated to being alone and doing things by myself. I am also one of these people who sees more negative than positive and I need to stop doing that. I just need to go ahead and do them.

This is the most important thing I want to focus on this year as I have just been so lazy last year. I am one of those who wish I drove because I can't be bothered to walk to the gym and back and I need to stop doing that. I am just so sick of being miserable in my own skin now and not being able to wear a lot of things that I wish I could. For example, I hate my arms so therefore I never show them, and I feel like I am limited to the kind of outfits I wear because I feel like I need to wear a long sleeved top all the time or a jacket over the top of something just so that I don't show my arms. I am so determined this year to eat healthily and go to the gym at least 4 times a week and finally get the body I want by the end of this year. My goal is to get down to a size 10.

I am not one of those people who is good at using notebooks and planners as I just buy them, write in one page and then forget about it. But, I feel like if i used one and actually stuck to it, it would help me so much more to be organised and crossing the things off that I have done would make me feel so much better. This means being more organised with my university assignments,

I definitely don't drink enough water, I tend to drink a lot of squash and sometimes fizzy drinks more than anything. I know water is so much more healthier so I am definitely going to start drinking more of it, especially because I want to lose weight as well. I know it helps improve your skin and your mood as well and overall I just know it will make me feel so much better as a person. Drinking more water is a MUST this year.

I am the worst person in the world when it comes to saving money but over the past couple of months I have done nothing but think and worry about my future. I have just over a year left at University and I have been constantly stressing about what I am going to do after it. I don't want to move back home at the age of 21, I want my own place as soon as I leave University and I know that it's not going to happen without some money behind me. So this year I need to work a lot of hours so that I can save enough money as I can for my future. But I am such a shopaholic and I always want to buy everything, especially when it comes to makeup, its so expensive being a girl!!! But yeah, I am determined to save my pennies in order for me to be happy once I leave. It's just because I am so used to living on my own with my friends at university now, I love my own space and being able to do what I want and moving back home is not what I want.

I am so scared of doing things on my own, and this just includes walking to do the gym on my own. I just get bored so easily and I am not easily motivated to do things on my own either. But I need to stop doing that, because if I don't start enjoying being on my own then what am I going to do when I live on my own? I don't know, but all I know is that I need to start focusing more on myself rather than being with other people. I am so into finding someone as well, I am bored of being single and it doesn't help that my best friend is engaged and I live with her. I worry too much about not finding someone soon but I have to realise that I need to make myself happy first and wait for the right person because they seem to come along when you aren't looking. I need to focus on losing weight more than anything this year and just leave men out of the picture for now, and just wait until the right one comes along. I need to make more memories by myself and do more spontaneous things and be happy.

I am really slacking when it comes to YouTube and my blog. I have said to myself so many times that I will do them properly but I just haven't. I have a serious case of CBA, even though these are the things which I have wanted to do the most for a long time. This year is going to be the year where I focus on doing my channel on my blog and expressing myself more across social media. I just feel like I have so much to cram into a whole week with all of these things to do as well as my university work but I am so determined to focus on getting where I want to be, if I don't do it now, I will be so disappointed in myself in the future.

I want to go to more places this year and be a lot more spontaneous. I want to make more memories and try out lots of new things that I can look back on and be happy about.

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